“I got it.” He answered the phone. He’s not much for talking on a cell, even the throwaway kind.
“On my way,” I told him and broke off the call. I backed the Ford out of the driveway and headed north. I had expected to make the pick up myself anyway. The Hammer always delivers, but he doesn’t make deliveries.
He didn’t ask why I needed the package; I didn’t ask how he got his hands on it so fast. We both know better. There’s more than water under our little bridge.
I lit up a smoke waiting at one of the jillion red lights on Little Road and flipped on the radio. A gravel voiced talk-show host went on and on about how America’s too liberal. I switched to the news.
A man is being extradited from the sex-tourism capitol of the world to Colorado where he may have killed a little girl after raping. Guy says it was an accident.
A girl escaped the closet her kidnapper had kept her in for eight years. The man killed himself rather than be taken alive.
A Muslim couple in England were planning to set off a bomb hidden in their baby’s formula. With the baby on the plane.
I switch off the radio. Maybe America’s too liberal or maybe we just use the word “human” too liberally in some cases. This isn’t a world, it’s a big blue asylum. I pitch my cigarette out the window, despite all the summer burn warnings. Fuck it. Let it burn. Let it all burn.
I turn on to Eastchase, part of the city that isn’t developed yet. The temperature drops a little so I can leave the window down. It’s still hot as a whore on nickel day and rain is just a stripper’s promise. But the breeze is nice and I’ve made this drive enough times, I can let my mind wander.
Hammer and I go way back. We did four years together out in west Texas. They called it a “school” and they weren’t wrong – they just didn’t realize what we were learning there. Half Indian, Cherokee and Choctaw, he came in to the system as “Andy”. He left “Hammer.” Every now and then he’ll bring a new lady friend by and she’ll ask why we call him that. We shrug like we don’t know or smile like our silence doesn’t involve a statute of limitations.
I park outside his apartment building, hop out of the Ford, light up another smoke and wait. Partly to be polite – Hammer doesn’t smoke anymore – but mostly to make sure no one was following me. Once I was satisfied, I bounded up the steps. The door wasn’t locked; he’d seen me coming.
He doesn’t have a lot of furniture, doesn’t spend a lot of time there. The package was on his table, wrapped in clear plastic and labelled with a number so he could track what he’d lent out, also a subtle reminder to anyone who he lends the stuff to. It’s a mistake not to bring things back to him.
He sat in the living area on one of the Salvation Army chairs he keeps maintained with duct tape. He was listening to the game on the TV and sharpening his old bowie knife. Despite the name, Hammer’s true genius is with a blade. He drew the steel over stone like he was slicing it thinly. He held it up for a second to examine the burr, then rested the hilt flat over the back of his hand. The old blade was perfectly balanced.
Balance, he once told me, back when we were Inside, was the thing. Knives or anything else in the world. The cloud gets too heavy, it’s out of whack with the sky, rain falls to restore the balance. Electricity flows because there’s a void at the other end. Balance. The world’s always falling into it.
He goes back to sharpening and we make small talk about the Cowboys and the weather, but it’s pretty obvious that he’s got work on his mind. Someone borrowed from him and hasn’t paid him back. He’s understanding about that, but it creates a vaccuum of trust, which has to be filled to restore balance. People fill it with late fees, as he calls it. Or he sharpens the knife. Either way, the deadbeat “patron” pays a price.
He doesn’t do it very often and he doesn’t break legs. But it turns out you only have to scalp one guy in a neighborhood to be taken seriously.
I take his silence as a cue and make my exit with the package. He doesn’t remind me when he needs it back; he knows I’ll be done with it before the sunrise. Truth is, I’ve been jonesing for what’s in the bag for weeks. I left the apartment like a junkie who just got a welfare check, one word pounding in my mind.
Soon.
My fingers find the book in the bag, tapping it for reassurance.
Soon.
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Ok, so none of that’s true, really, except the parts that are. I’ve been looking forward to Andrew Vachss’ new novel for sometime and my buddy at the library did just hook me up only a couple days after it hit the shelf. But you can’t read Vachss without it affecting your writing just a smidge.
Oh, and kids, be sure you always return library materials when they’re due. ‘Cause I ain’t telling which branch the Hammer works at.
Review of the novel coming soon.
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Let me be clear
Ok, rather than rewrite and revise my last post, I’ll just clarify a bit. Maybe it will be clearer, although I’m writing today with a greater lack of sleep than yesterday. And, up front, my apologies for any Arabic words I misspell. Anyhoo:
I supported and still do support what we’re doing in Iraq. In the end, if we’re successful, Iraq will be a free and prosperous nation and a likely ally and business partner. It’s entirely possible that the career politicians who called the Iraq War the “wrong war at the wrong place, wrong time” will be bitching about jobs being outsourced there. Possible, I said. If we do it right. The same is true for Afghanistan, although that country will require a great deal more investment in infrastructure and human capital before serious investments come its way.
Let’s consider exactly how big a threat this is to Iran, Syria, Pakistan and our good friends in Saudi Arabia. If we prove successful in Iraq, we then wield a greater weapon than anything we have in our nuclear arsenal. We can, in fewer than 5 years, completely undo what a cadre of mullahs and revolutionaries, or Stalinist dictators, or Bizaj shock troops or Mukhbarat secret police or imams and fedayeen took 30 or 40 years to build up. We can undo theocracies and autocracies and replace them like spare parts with democracy and federalism and separated church and state. And we can do it at will, anytime we want, without taking any other nation’s or the United Nations’ leave, and on the flimsiest of excuses.
Already anytime we want we could once again become death, destroyer of worlds. We have the missiles to spare. We’re freakin’ Shiva over here. But that’s not what we want to do. We can do worse to the theocrats and baathists. And worse is what they see us doing to them when they look at Iraq and Afghanistan. With this threat, we can force reforms upon their countries, one way or another. With those reforms comes less social support for terror and more stability in the region.
But this is only the first and worst part of the War on Terror, if we are to truly win it. A war is won when your enemy can no longer resist you.
It’s not enough just to cut out a cancer. You have to make sure it hasn’t spread or stop the metastasis if it has. The cancer of Islamism is malignant and has spread to Europe already, to Southeast Asia and the Phillipines, to Africa and possibly to the US. We cannot let these tumors grow either, or we’ll have wasted our efforts so far.
We have to contain the teaching of religious hatred towards the West and towards our allies, specifically Israel. We have to stop the flow of wahabi literature and broadcasts out of Saudi Arabia. We must discredit through military defeat Hizbollah and Janjaweed.
We must arrest, question and imprison imams in the US and Europe preaching jihad against our nations or against other religions. If we let them live. Some should be made examples of. Abu Hamza comes to mind. We will have to use spies and surveillance of mosques to do this. Deep cover agents will have to infiltrates centers of a religion that may be harmless in fact. Freedom of religion – it has limits, just like freedom of speech does. Your rights stop when you use them to harm others. Or rather, consequences kick in when you do.
Until we take these concrete steps, we will not have won this war. We will have the spectre of terrorism, the new sword of Damocles, hanging over us. Until we stop the spread of the hate, our enemies can still resist us.
Now, perhaps we could get others to do some of this for us. That would be nice. Maybe the Israelis really will crush Hizbollah next time. Maybe sanctions will work against Iran. Maybe Pakistani intelligence services will continue to feed us information about terror cells and support coming from their country. Maybe the Afghan government will be able to fight the remnants of the Taliban on their own soon. Maybe the Saudi royals will find ways to end the internal reign of the wahabi clerics. Maybe the Palestinians will begin to realize that statehood is more than attacking Israel. Maybe the world will take action in Darfur and Somalia.
But we can’t count on that. “Maybe” isn’t going to win this war. Neither are the half-measures we’re currently employing, as great a weapon as they are.
Oh, and, what he said.
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